Hey, thanks a lot for helping me just now Hey, it's alright. Don't think about it. No, seriously, thanks a lot. Why did you do that ? How ? What kind of a question is that ? I stand up for my Women, remember? It's basic Women instinct. So you did that cos I'm your Women, right? That was November last year. I said yes because in that instant I really thought she referred to herself as part of Women not my Woman. Even with your articulation/hearing problemo, it was never my problemo.
Darling, there wasn't an inch of cell in my body or brain that ever intended to mislead you in any way possible. I hadn't acted on anything because I wasn't even thinking of acting on anything. But apparently I motioned for the LED.
Then I left that queer-bashing place, you left for the clubs. But to be honest, I'm the one who never left. I've always been right here. You disappeared. You left. You left for your club kicks, your club wardrobe, your club make-up, your club queers. That was my scene way before you fucking turned 18, even if you are a month older than I am. Don't point any of your varnished fingers at me. You left me for the scene. I didn't complain. I'm still not complaining.
But you know what grinds my gears ? That you only bother to text or call me a proper one to complain about how people look at you & how your own friends think of you differently. You put yourself out there like that. Learn to own it like you own them cover charges four nights of the week. Note here: You weren't all caked up & 'glitz & glam' before.
& what's that I hear ? You love hanging out with your Gayboys ? Why ? Cos Gayboys are scene too ? Who was the one who'd pull me all the way to CQ just so you could hang out with some guy who was into you ? Srsly.
Here's my real question: What happened to that Purple-induced band girl who listened to German rock whose mind was always open for wonder ? What happened to your innocence & decency ?
// So Shida, what's the deal? Are you still gay ? What kind of a question is that ?
That was a few days back. If anyone even notices or bothers, I'm more about Pride than I've ever been. But you really make me wanna go, So, what's the deal ? You're still not getting any ?
Is that it ? Is that why you're so stuck up now like a butt plug up Alan Cumming's asshole ?
What ever happened to the boy who'd go: Hey, Bitch, how're you doing ? *hug* ? What fucking bullshit. You've just proven yourself to be the one thing I never thought you'd be. A fucking two-faced jerk. Because you were all about Shida, I love you & your sisters sia serious. & you'd push your luck with the digits.
Better days, better times - not right now. Same faces, same names, Same places, different games.
