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Sunday, November 16

[Hardcore superstar, by far, you're the ultimate star]

I feel rather accomplished today.

I got round to sorting out my deadlines & gave myself a heads up by patronizing Factiva.

I created a page from scratch. I never really thought I could sit down for a good 4 hours in front of this screen without having change urls or flip page after page every few minutes. I like my debut work very much. Hell, I'm proud of it. I'm proud of myself :D
Thank you, Mean Bitch & Shaik, for playing as 'net passers-by & giving me concrete, constructive feedbacks.

I'm so excited just looking at my baby page. It really isn't that big of deal.
I'm more excited to start posting up for SIWM.
I just hope there's some critical & constructive slamnation in my face during discussion.
Otherwise, it'll just be a waste of time on my part. Well, not so much on the page setup but a hell lot more on gathering reliable sources & deriving my own aspects from them & make way for awareness/realization.

Okay, I'm slowly sinking back into my realm again.
Ms Serena says to keep posts concise. I gotta start somewhere some time.

I started to reinvent the recurring doubt within myself. I've never been one to keep promises, esp promises to myself.
I came out of my ratty comfort zone & took a stab at making my first proper promise.
A promise to someone I love & respect & second-to-last person I'd ever want to disappoint/hurt. I hope to keep this for as long as I can hold it out. Hopefully, it becomes a norm with me.
& thank you for letting me, Ms MandyKatVonDMaryMurder A.K.A Kangin's outlaw wife. :D *hugs*

It's been a week since I bailed on my vital doses of tar. 7 days & 4 hours.
I thought I was gonna throw in the damn towel by Wednesday but I thrived through the week. & hell, they're gonna be more thriving weeks to come! I guess what I really needed wasn't isolation or distraction. In fact, all I needed was to go on with my daily life like it was, surrounded by the same people all these times, given the same environment since April 2008. It seemed more sensible to have faith in the end result & challenge my own will - mind over matter.

& things have definitely been looking up for me. Just not academically - yet?
I've a lot of catching up to do. It's dead sad how my initiative dies on me during academic hours.
This semester's projects seem like some decent amount of fun. This time, if the COUGHleader isn't gonna start anything, plan anything chronologically, I'm stepping the fuck in & I'm gonna take all the damn credits from the leader cos it's just not fucking fair & I'm sick of compromising, esp after MacroE's episode last semester.

Oh fuck, don't tell me that I actually am head for one of the subjects. Fucking self-pwnt.

& I cranked up a good load of whacky/insane/almost-impossible ideas after last Sunday ceased.
I thought of going back to what I used to love to do: Netball/Dance/Design.
Then I thought of venturing into a new corporate industry. Apparently I got replies for mostly Administrative & a few customer service positions. I find that slightly disconcerning yet funny cos I'm bimbo of the century when it comes to technology/terminology/technicality.
Interviews are gonna raid my afternoons over the week, I guess.

& I scared Ms Poccohontas when I summoned for her [via my screen name] when she came online. Well, I did warn her it was an insane idea. But she didn't slap me for it! She slapped me for the fun of it. Whattawhore! Virtually, of course. I'm like so psyched for it even though it's just pure speculation. It's high time I start a new collection/perspective anyway. I never got round to doing that during O Level's break like I planned to cos work ate up my life. Besides, I needed the money to flee the country :D

B Mom & I are proud to be ultimate shames to the lezfest because we are benders ! Hahahaha.
Tzephorah seems to be drifting in & out of her own life, it seems weird to me. She used to love the way her life flows, no matter the circumstances, no matter the phases.
Arcnonangel claims to be excited for me with my new project with the baby page. Seems to me she's more receptive now, esp after not having anything to do with her former possession.
Prop 8 is such an attention seeker with no concrete evidences & regulations to back their pleas up. Not that I disrespect Elton John but he hasn't any say in the US system. He's fucking Briton for crying out loud !
Clost seems to have accepted her 'small commitment' pretty fairly.
President Nonok seems to be dealing fine & I'm glad to hear from him.
Chigga's going out of control, she reminds me of Rufio's single. Babe, hang in there to get out of there !

Okay, no. That concise thing? No go.

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