FUCK WHY HASNT THE FINE LETTER ARRIVED YET ? FUCK I HAVE TO KEEP MY PAY INTACT WHILST WAITING FOR THE LETTER. FUCK I HAVE TO KEEP CHECKING THE MAILBOX DAY IN DAY OUT ! FUCK I CAUSED ALLY'S FINGERS TO SWELL & GET HURT ! FUCK I HOPE THERE AIN'T FRACTURES. FUCK I SHOULD BE SHOT. FUCK WHY AM I SO MOTHERFUCKING STUPID ! FUCK YOU GODDAMN CUBICLE DOOR !!
I want to paint a Pride shirt, partly for UPP. :D I want to get a new hairdo. I want to get fucked over for causing Ally the hurt, I swear. ): Okay, Wei Lun already did part of that. Read: Boob Slap.
Anywoways, I wish I could say I still have that soft spot for you but this heart doesn't do reservations anymore. I can't promise to be at your beck & call. I haven't in a long time already. & now you're coming back? Girl, it's not gonna fly with me. You know how we play this game so quit trying to buy me out. & tell Ms Slit-eyed that I'm not gonna be her Professor Pick-Up-Lezzo 101. I earn my tacos myself & I'm not up for sharing. You don't even deserve my seconds.
What the fuck am I? A fucking carpenter that you both can go to just to fix you guys back together? Fuck you, Ms Slit-eyed. You stole my girl & now you wanna call on me? You stole my girl & broke her heart one too many times. You stole my girl & made her distant from me, disregarding the friendship that we've built since we were 9, way before you existed in both our lives. Srsly, fuck you.
I'm not being egoistic. Neither am I saying she'd be perfect with me & without you. I told you I'm way over that because it's true. But you can see for yourself just how many more times she smiles with me as compared to the times she's with you. Yeah I admit defeat, my time is over. Hell, I srsly think she'd be better off with boys than you.
I'm sick of being the one who people fall out over. I've had enough of being the comeback kid. I'm tired of being second-best. I'm trying my best to avoid the drama in this fucking scene. I want to be so preoccupied with work, if only I didn't have to do the same old same old & it would help if the pay rates were slightly more extravagant. I'm so fucking money-minded, it's annoying, and yet I spend incessantly. I miss my darkness. I miss my happy things. I miss being unknown.
Yes, Tina Kanard, I miss being part of a something secret too.
