Friday, March 28
[Algo se calienta adentro]
It's utterly surreal even just thinking about this & it's even more inane that it's said & done & I'm about to make this public.
I fucking wished the Creature I call my sister Happy Birthday today, the first in a dead long time. Read: Kindie days. OMFG I'M ACTUALLY REALLY OLD.
But yeah, I did.
I'd usually be gloating over her crying her eyes out but I actually withdrew myself from that today. Frankly, I didn't even THINK of gloating. It's pretty sad though cos her 14th didn't go too well. She got fucked over by her marching band & got stripped of her post. I pretty much know what that feels like cos I've seen how these fucking retarded-ultra-loyal band noobs are like. Don't get me wrong. It's actually a compliment. I've come to adore how much band kids actually GIVE UP for just to make it work.
ANYWAY.
Like adding salt to her 86858 wounds, my folks started rattling all over her for being late & bullfuck. Not cool. Even though I know how this place could be so much like a brickshit house, it shouldn't happen on an occasion like this. Especially one where you actually celebrate the life of a kid you've brought up all your life.
Wtf's going on with households & marriages venturing into their Golden years?
& you know, we actually talked like proper friend-to-friend about her day. I asked her wtf is she gonna do now & obviously the most familiar answer anyone'd give is "I don't know". It's understandable but unreasonable. 14 days left to SYF. I told her to get that over & done with first. It's the only logical thing to do right now.
& the fact that she's crying like a pussy over this shows how much hard work she's pumped into her passion. It's just not her luck that she doesn't get her returns. She's growing up alright & I'm glad she is. I'm not gonna be around to back her up as and when she needs me. She's gotta stick up for herself for as long as she can hold it out. I told her I should be her last resort.
So my dad bought her a cake. W(ho)tf would wanna go on with a birthday with his mofuckum mouth/words/face? Then my brother being the understandably fucktard greedy kid went to pull out all the cherries & ate a chunk off the cake even before my sister could look at the cake. I was actually pissed. Technically, for me, I wouldn't gobble/snatch something that signifies someone's something without letting the person have the best of it first. He didn't give a fuck to the words I said. But, he became guilty whilst eavesdropping on me/my sister's conversation. He came to realize how truly "greedy" & "impatient" & "stupid shmuck smug asshole" he was by stealing the cake. Yes, I quoted from his 9-year-old mouth.
Prolly to you it's stupid to be posting about a kid being greedy for a cake & crying later cos he's guilty. But you know what is it to me? It only goes to show how matured he is & how much he understands his siblings. His fucking brave to admit it after realizing it. Sometimes it scares me that he grows up this quick mentally but I'm glad all the same.
*Reads from top* HOLYMOTHERFUCKENSHIT. That's a hell load of shit I typed up there. & you know what's the irony already. The fact that I'm actually talking about my kid siblings.
Back to life as it is,
I've been ferrying back & from work these days. I promise I'll work shorter hours in times to come so I can hang with you people! I went to JB with Mommy on Thursday & bumped into Cikgu Asiah. I am amazed how she still looks like the way she did 7 years ago. & she still remembers me & how many siblings I have! So I had my kebaya done for my cousin's upcoming wedding in June & throughout the whole time in JB I was being a total kid, making my Mom ask me things like,
"Are you hungry yet?"
"Where do you wanna eat?"
"Do you want fastfood or nasi?"
"Do you wanna go home early?"
& other times I'll be like, I want this & that.
Plus, I actually declared to her that I'm moving out when I get my Diploma & settle for a decent job. She doesn't seem to object cos she even suggested some places. My problem now is la padre.
