[You know it ain't my time to shine] So what they say could be true, everything happens when you’re sixteen. But knowing me, I don’t take sayings as they are unless I’ve seen through it myself. Within the past couple of weeks, or even the past month, there’s been a whirlwind of love-making & prolly slightly more than twice heart-breaks caused. Another moment in time when you’re stuck sitting on the fence thinking: Do you let go now, after so much & after so long? Will separation solve the matter, resulting in 2 individuals who are freed from a knot they used to share? Or will it tear both sides into pieces, one person choosing to walk away, trying hard not to look back while the other’s choking cries & cigarette smokes?
Probably I have no say in this because, hey, I’m the one stuck in the wrong season. I was nursing a broken heart in February when most of you got Valentines & now the monsoon winds change direction & those cupid arrows in your hearts are starting to fade to black. But you know, after seeing so much, all this in just barely a year, it all boils down to emotions.
At our teenage years, it feels like someone can make or break you. It feels like your life can come crumbling down by the pull of gravity just as quick as it can make you believe forever lasts & that tomorrow’s gonna be better. Well, kids, embrace yourselves cos this is teenage emotions. We let our hearts, our desires, take over our brains & strength. You already know what I’m talking about.
At this age, at this point of time, you think you need to have someone to complete you. But I’ll tell you this, straight into your face, YOU DON’T. Because you came into this world as one whole, you’ll leave the same way. You’ve to learn to live for your sake, do things for your sake, take on chances/risks for your sake. When it comes to long-term relationships, you’ve to think of yourself first – whether you can afford the time, emotional & mental capacity. Because if you know you can’t, don’t bet on high expectations. What if they’re not met? Who’s gonna suffer? Your insides. Then you’ll think of the other party. Relationships aren’t supposed to be worked out. Relationships are to be fostered, with the most sincere effort and a fucking shitload of trust. Better yet, things are just supposed to happen because otherwise, things would be too predictable you’d lose that spark way too quick.
I’m not saying relationships should be stopped. It’s just, don’t take it as something or someone that completes you because deep down in the hearts of everyone, you know you complete yourself. Srsly, you know you wouldn’t give up your life for the other half. It’s way too short. You’re stronger than this. You’re stronger that you’d ever thought you were. Having someone, being in a relationship, should be a bonus to your life & not some missing puzzle to complete your picture. You have got to be contented with yourself instead of using relationships to be contented. It should be something you look at & go, “Hey, I deserve this gift of life because I’ve done a sackload to get to where I am right now.” Relationships are blessings.
Maybe I got waaay too deep that it’s scaring me as I’m reading back right now. But I figure I had to send this across to anyone who gets to it. I know I should be sued. Wait, just not yet.
Kaye, let's balance this out. YAY+Aww at/to those who are working out. I swear it was cute the way Dino went "Where's my girlfriend?", twirling his hair with a worried small-boy face. & then Skinneh smiled like a fucking girl when she received her long-awaited text from the girl. These acts are cute b'doh.
