[Don't swallow until you learn to chew] I've been pretty caught up of late. Since probably a week & a half ago. Study marathons, day in day out. It's good brain stimulation & hell, I feel somewhat accomplished. So that's half the battle won, right? At least I hope so. Elementary Math's got hope this time round, at least a fucking pass. I've got doubts for Elective though. KC wouldn't give me his fucking blessings, that selfish Hitler lover. Everything & anything he does is for Hitler. Oei, where's the room for me?! NEXT. I can't exactly remember what's been on in between Monday and today cos all that freezefrick time in the hall seems to last longer than it should & still, I feel like I have to chase after time. So the faster I go, there's more tendency to overlook stuff. I know I went grocery shopping today, for the fucking breakfast in a few hours, with Huiting & that caused her to blow er-she wu fen on just snacks and japanese food. Hahaha. I'm sorry. I knew you should've never choose to hang with me today, or even any day. We know we shouldn't hang too much cos we'll just drive ourselves to our own graves. Irony is, everytime we say I'm never gonna go out with you again, we do after a few days. HAHAHAHAHHA. But it's all in fun times. YOU FUCKING MINAH GOSTAAAAN. Quick grow up & old, I wanna see you BRANDED. :D
Hi, aren't you tired, lethargic & feeling restless? FUCK YOU. YOU'RE NOT ALONE. Haha. Even if I do go to bed by 10ish since last week.
It's one fucking month left to Os & I can't wait for it to start & end because only then will life start & I'll know I'm not stuck on rewind. I'm gonna jam that button!
Sad though to think there's only one month left of what's left of 4E. I know I've just been fucking things up since I 'earned' the badge. Frankly, 4E's been dependant/running on Zameer/Hanee. Damn, why do I always come in between people? Tak cool please. & I know, if everyone of them could afford the riches, I'd be badly sued by now with a litany of lawsuits down my neck. A little too late for reapproaching here. But you know what? I can't be the best CM & it's because I stand on par with every kid. I don't have that alter ego(just this particular one) that comes out & takes over the world with a blue badge. So if I can't be the best, I'll be the best suckfest of a CM that no one else can be/attain. & DON'T YOU DARE FORGET MY NAME. SitiRashidahBteRamli :D Yeah, you want pride? TAKE THAT. Hahahaha. Ok let's digress abit: I dared Maxine to invite Sara to our class for breakfast. SHE FUCKING PWN. Sara thought it was something serious. OMG MAXINE ILUILUILUILU Huiting can go relax one corner & GFKhahaha. Hee.
So yeah, there. I lay the score sheet to my thoughts on a silver stand. Stage's set, for you to listen to me play my piece. "This is called coming out." HAHAAHAH YES SKINNEH EAT THIS. It takes a lot to realise something. It takes a lot more to come out of it & admit it right in your own fucking face. It takes a hell lot more to absorb the response/aftermath. You know what's the easy part? Knowing that I'll be able to live with it cos my conscience is clear. You can shoot me right in between the eyes & my pupils won't follow the bullet's path into my own head.
On a lighter note, I feel like a little fucking girl going all gaga over Little Miss Jake again. Her folders are more than twice that iof Brian Molko's. But LMJ is cute & hot & lawa & stupid & awesome & grounded & independant & sogrosslycuteinaskirtwithfishnetsandheeledmaryjanes. Fuck she makes me go hee hee in my head then feel all guilty cos I should be thinking of Brian & how to gain custody of Cody. "BUT WHERE'S THE LOVE SHIDA?!" BABY, IT'S RIGHT UNDER BOTH OF MY PITS.
