[When your heart doesn't sing the right tune] So it's like this; what starts in chaos, ends in chaos. Yeah, I don't like it when Helena makes sense at the wrong time too but you gotta face it. Yeah, you. Not me. What is this, the season of break-ups & heartaches? Naw, I'm not part of it thankfully. Neither am I gloating over it in the case of Sephora. But it's sad, you know? When things get fucked up like that & better yet, one party gets off easily by fleeing the country. NOT COOL. Sure, I'm glad they finally aren't working out. But being on the verge of ending something is just something you can't deny that you feel the hurt too. But of course I don't feel for the slit-eyed scarf shitface but to see Sephora having unsettled sleeps & amounting eyebags? That's quite the killer. I would never let her sleep past her bedtime thinking, figuring things out. Come to think of it, I never did let her. Except it took a toll on me the other time & I still am wondering how I went on for four or five days without sleep. & how it triggered back my nicotine intake. Don't you dare blame it on her that I'm back with smokes. It was my fault. It still is.SufIcouldkillyourightaboutnow. But I guess you gotta lose everything to gain anything. I did. Guess what I gained? CALORIES/FATS. Proud Mokeian k. & this is why I AM PRESIDENT.
Someday I'll learn not to give up on you. But right now, Imma give it up (Sean Paul in the background HAHAHA). Cos I know hearts don't change so easily & I for one can't fix a broken heart like I think I can. Affairs of the heart belongs to the owner. What's the most I can do? I'll tell you this; I can stay up or sit with you to cry with you, to listen to you pour your heart out. But I can't tell you what to do. Fade out for a while, figure it out by yourself, listen to yourself & only then you know your decision's worth all the while. I'll be right here, waiting for you to holler for me, with that smile when I know you're all cleared out & ready to venture out. If there's ever one thing I promise you, this I do.
