Tuesday, March 20
I don't know about everyone else but I've been feeling good for a while, I've started being happy. It's easier to deal with shit when good days like today materialize, well for some of us.
Huiting's gonna get shit for sweating all over my wallet & for trying to unhook my sports bra, haha. Damn, I was so close to unhooking hers but she's too swift. & in the morning we checked on Michele to see if she needed ice cubes to make sure her blood gushes out sooner & stop her cramps hahaha. I counted to ten and came back out to face Toh BOKBOK. The irony is that I thought I saw Zai standing but then when I came back to class, she wasn't there. I don't know if I did see her. K, no relevance.
Bell rang for dismissal & it became official.
I, your fucking president, am Syafiq's girlfriend. Well thanks to Nora that is. YES THAT SON OF A MAT Syafiq, haha. It's been fun really, having to say every line starting with, "U.." and getting caught scandalling with Ersian after almost every lesson. Typical Syafiq line :
"Ape you you? Kau ingt kelakar pe? (Syafiq pushes Ersian) Takpe, kasi chan. (Syafiq goes toilet, haha)"
& during class when Ersian tries to bother me I go,
"Matair I kat belakang, dier dtg rembat you I tak tau eh."
I swear, we should kowtow to Nora for making things a hell lot funnier/scarier in class. & Raof's Syafiq's dad, technically (see his name). Raof was making a real fool of himself during lit so I screamed over Syafiq and he returned,
"Alah, bapak mertua you jgk!" Funny fuck.
[yes, malay shortforms to portray the minahmat-ness of the situation]
Thus after I hobbled over to TM gobbled down half a pan of pizza with Ersian, Zahirah & Renu. We talked shizzle and the two girls went to meet some fuckers, while me & Ersian dated at ToysR'Us, yes behind Syafiq's back \M/. We spent ages in there sorting out what DIY stuff to get & played with playdough making fools of ourselves, still having our leader badges on. SO MUCH FOR BEING CHANNELS OF INFLUENCE, YO.
I'll end this off sober.
Skinneh, I'm bloody seriously sorry I didn't know any earlier. Scream out for me the next time, yeah? At the very least I'll know somehow you'd be okay. & trust me, if you've got enough ballz to proactively come out, then you'd be strong enough to pull through all the shit thrown in your direction. True enough they aren't willing to accept the reality of it, the reality of you. They need time & till then, they'll go down hard on you. Good thing for you, your baby's got your back. So do I. & all your other friends. So long as the love between the two of you keep burning, things will turn out fine. Parents act/think like they do because they believe their kids will turn out how they'd plan you would since the day you were born. Most of the time they forget you're growing up, carving out your own life. So when you finally come clean, they can't take the blow. But Skinneh, look at it this way - you came out early (& sober :D) and on your own accord. So that pays for your future. Complications arise now but with time it'll ebb. Your parents will eventually, hopefully, accept you for who you are & not what they want you to be.
I swear if I had the power, I'd turn you & your babe into barbies alive and let you live in my doll house just so you guys would live happily ever after. (There's two queen beds, an attic, a swimming pool & a toilet - your fucking essentialsxszx :D)
Skinneh, here's a toast to your courageous ballz & acceptance.
I've been looking for a saviour
I've been waiting for a sign
And i said,
Love will save the day
I promise you that love will save the day, cross my heart & hope to die. I'm fucking proud of you cansxszx !
