Alas, I fell fucking asleep last night :D I woke up today thinking, why not kick start this bloody hot day with homework? So I did. I suppose I've messed up this whole week. I'm a wreck & worst still, I can't hide it. I haven't slept for 5 nights straight. Heck it, even my resorting to R&B didn't help. It's still a wonder how I can keep on going like that. It took a toll on my head & all the mighty migrains almost killed me alive. I swear I felt like an idiot sheltering my eyes from the classroom lights cos it was way too bright right then. Apart from my falling apart, my assignments aren't going anywhere either. I got so caught up trying to figure out what was the reason behind the text, and why the sudden e-mail. Shot down my world within like 3 seconds that I couldn't function afterwards. I met her that day, in all the mess that I am. How fucking embarrassing. God, I feel like killing her and smashing into the wall but you know what, I can't. And there's only one reason to it.
It's been 6 days since Narda raided my contact list :D Seems like I'm not the only one screwed up in my own little universe. We've been doing a hell lot of talking & texting. It helps that I've got someone to pour my guts out to, literally. Cos she knows what it's like, & vice versa. It seems too good to be true that we're kinda alike but you what, at least it's something new. & you owe me a copy of Adobe, k. True enough it makes me all revved up to meet her sometime cos given the circumstances & our alternate narrations, we're pretty much screwed up with our lives, wasting our youth laughing & talking c0ck. Not forgetting pwning them CCA asses. hahaha. & babe, good luck holding the closet love.
Hey, things don't happen because they have to but because there's a reason to it. And things don't work out the way you want them to but because it's supposed to, most of the time. If you attempt unrequitted love, it's the same as eating yourself inside out. Choose to keep things sealed & hidden, you could lose the people you've gripped onto so tight all these times.
I've only managed to cough out a chorus from this puny brain of mine. So you take it by the hand to walk you through Then trail along its steps to someplace new You watch it turn around to finally face you It’s burning in her eyes; you can feel it’s true.
And sometime, somehow, somewhere, You’d feel it coming, And sometime, somehow, somewhere, It’s gonna call out your name. (Love, Love, Love, Love) Oh baby, so much for love.
