i just wake up everyday and don't feel a thing. it's like 'oh, morning already?' and then back onto the couch with the player on repeat mode. no one talks. no one laughs. my room's not messy. and i'm going everywhere without my keys. i know it isn't depression. it's just the way home is now. i don't even feel like going out anymore. I'm even wasting my time going for training. things outside of home will just seem to me as a miracle when i step back home. i don't kniow how i've survived. i don't even know if i can go on like this. it's just shit, as shit is. i haven't listened to any playlist this past week. maybe something's missing. but dammit, what is it? and yeah the raining doesn't help. fffuck. who the hell am i. what the fuck is wrong.
where's the dart board when i need to pin myself up?
