Friday, August 5
so i've been planning all week to skip school for just one day and i got my dream come true only thing is i'm skipping for a slight fever. i'd never ever wish for such things ever again.
i've been a wreck since wednesday afternoon. the thought of seeing myself 5 years down the road made me bawl a lot. my mom thinks i'm too deep while dad thinks i'm imagining too much when i told them. i don't know which but it was definitely something premonitionish proving that there's still a spot of white in this wired heart of mine or maybe not.
Well,in that moment of notion, i visualized myself the total opposite of what i am now - how i wanted my life to be, about a decade ago perhaps. and i just started to bawl out from then. perhaps because i can't exactly believe it, comparing with my life now.
maybe my parents are right, i'm too deep and too imagining.
at least for now i'm sombred down. i just hope the thoughts will go away really soon.
