i'm feeling sorta empty. but still, i'd want to say a huge Thanks to the few people drawing me away from this 'idon'tknowhowtofeel' period in school. ashraf, aqilah, zhuliana but still, for god's sake i AM NOT part of your 'clan', thanks. and there's din and sha. i owe it to you guys that i don't somehow turn totally cold-hearted towards myself. still, i harden or in fact, get extremely empty when i step back home. it just seems that those laughs and jokes were empty. i kinda not believe that was me, now that i think of it. you know, i want to just drain all my thougts and feelings on to any passerby i see but i just can't make myself to. not even to a stray cat. god what the hell's gone wrong with me. is my heart so grey that it's close to black? what what what what?! i don't know how long i can withstand this. let's just hope i don't come to school and start kicking doors and lockers and blasting at everyone i see or stuffing the word 'fuck' in my every sentence. i just can't afford to burst like this, at this point of time. there's Finals - streaming. i just don't know what more.
