Monday, April 25
FOURTEEEN
trail from tuesday,19 april.my birthday.YAYY.it's suppose to be my best day of the year.well,this year it's just an 'okay'.school was fine.i got wishes.thanks to all.Din woke me up in the effed morning,5.30.that's AN HOUR OFF my sleeping period.but replaced me all my mournings with a teeny Pooh and a bendable flower.:Dat the bus stop,He was there,skipping school.he gave me a big prez.chatted and stuff,while waiting for the bus.He handed me another bag,with prezs from bandmates(kirimslam,see).didn't open any till science(zy helped the ripping part)along with the big prez came a note.a note i didn't want to ever read.but i did.an apology.my day was ruined.in the sense that i felt guilty as well as mad.i was hellwurred : to give it another shot or give it up anyway? the rest of the day was okay.i skipped netball and went to pizza hut with ant,sha and zy and later to the Dance Farewell.i went home.my birthday cake was replaced with a large pizza :D i guess that eased me a bit.unwrapped other presents received by mail : gig tix,more bears,a bandshirt,new topup value and some other.well,i'm fourteen. = more dilemma.
POST-FOURTEEN
20th was fine.got more presents.a Muse,a Lostprh,OSD's first cd demo : WOOHOO! ARRIBA!,another shirt and cardigan and yes,still : the dilemma ringing.RAHHH.the day went fine though.got myself a new best friend : ming xun.and yi xiong gave me an air kiss,after ten zillion years.haha.
21st great.three whole freeperiods.i and aqilah,talked a bit.sang some sellouts(i know.)all in all,it's fine.no major flaws.dilemma rings harder
22nd o-kay.assembly programme sucked though.present from my primary friends : Mrs Incredile plushie,photo frames and a new bottle.still,dilemmashitshitshit.
23rd,Saturday.dvd-mania.samara,spongebob,dudewhere'smycar,
shutter.and two uncompleted songs,i wrote.at 5,i went out with Him.my moment of truth.i made up my mind,i gave it a Yes.as zai said,maybe it's just the cause of stupidjealousy and he'll change.i'm hanging on to that hope.
24th YAYYYY.went jaMMMMOING.woo.four hours.a whole fortune wasted.but oh well.completed one of my songs.and i got a new pair of drumsticks from Las,birthday.created the beats myself and YES,I AM PROUD OF IT.did some thrice and casualties.dead emotion(it's never complete without).then they all set home,i went to the beach.to my spot.the spot i live my days hoping for better.basically,I OWN IT !:D had sometime,wrote another song.uncompleted,as usual.then i went to town,to fill time since curfew is at 8 and bought myself a purple tee.TEEWOOT TEEWEE.MY GREATEST POSSESSION YET.
25th todayyy : okay perhaps.half the class was out during math.homeworktime,i got some science stuff done.AND ZHULIANA IS STUCK TO 'GOYANG...MARILAH BERGOYANG..'.she got me and aqilah hooked too.uhm.dinah,she's weird,it's bugging me.and Him? i'm giving it a week or two.it's either change-equals-YAY or goodbye-permanently.i don't know.i'm doubting.
